Dear Christian-Blast From the Past

Today I was reading a few old entries from my blog, just to see what I wrote about way back then.  I couldn't believe how much I've changed in the past few years.  I also realized that in some ways I'm just the same!  Anyway, it gave me a renewed energy to keep up the blogging.  It was so fun to read old posts.  I really do need to get a book made of my blog so we have a hard copy to look at. 

On December 5, 2008 I wrote this post on my blog.  

Dear Christian,

Today you were in a very grumpy mood. You threw a tantrum every other word I said. But that's okay because I love you SO much! Today you got into every nook and cranny in the house, especially if you knew you'd get in trouble for it. But that's okay because I love you SO much! Today you spit out every morsel of food I offered to you (even ice cream). But that's okay because I love you SO much! Today you learned how to open the refrigerator and carried around the mustard everywhere you went. But that's okay because I love you SO much! Today you randomly gave me a big hug when I was sitting on the floor exhausted at 11am from a long day of chasing you around and cleaning your messes. And then I remembered I love you SO much!

Love,
Mommy



What I wrote on December 5, 2008 is what I feel today.  It may be different events going on during the day, but I still feel the same.  Christian has been finding new ways to challenge me throughout the day.  He is older, understands much more, and is constantly testing the boundaries.  I find myself getting frustrated with him more easily this week.  I don't know why.  My attitude has been less than desirable.  All day long when he asks me "Why?" I just answer, "Because I love you." 

Hopefully soon I will be able to get my attitude back to normal.  A little sleep might help.  But until then I will keep praying for guidance and patience (Yikes...praying for patience is dangerous :).   Parenting, while the most difficult thing I've ever done, is very rewarding!  And at the end of the day, when Christian says, "I love you, mom!"  I forget the challenges of the day and start with a fresh outlook on life.  The good days are far greater than the bad.  And for that, I feel very blessed!